{"id":222,"date":"2026-06-03T17:29:25","date_gmt":"2026-06-03T16:29:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jessetmills.me\/?p=222"},"modified":"2026-06-03T18:02:33","modified_gmt":"2026-06-03T17:02:33","slug":"a-flawed-man-with-a-dream","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jessetmills.me\/index.php\/2026\/06\/03\/a-flawed-man-with-a-dream\/","title":{"rendered":"A flawed man with a dream"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-post\" data-elementor-id=\"222\" class=\"elementor elementor-222\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-d19ff9f e-flex e-con-boxed e-con e-parent\" data-id=\"d19ff9f\" data-element_type=\"container\" data-e-type=\"container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"e-con-inner\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-bfe803c elementor-widget elementor-widget-html\" data-id=\"bfe803c\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"html.default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<style>\r\n  @import url('https:\/\/fonts.googleapis.com\/css2?family=Cinzel:wght@400;600&family=Crimson+Pro:ital,wght@0,300;0,400;1,300&display=swap');\r\n\r\n  .iron-lotus-post {\r\n    background: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.65);\r\n    border: 1px solid rgba(180, 130, 60, 0.4);\r\n    border-left: 3px solid rgba(180, 130, 60, 0.85);\r\n    padding: 48px 52px;\r\n    max-width: 820px;\r\n    margin: 0 auto;\r\n    backdrop-filter: blur(4px);\r\n    box-shadow: 0 8px 48px rgba(0,0,0,0.5), inset 0 0 80px rgba(0,0,0,0.2);\r\n  }\r\n\r\n  .iron-lotus-post .post-label {\r\n    font-family: 'Cinzel', serif;\r\n    font-size: 11px;\r\n    letter-spacing: 4px;\r\n    color: rgba(180, 130, 60, 0.85);\r\n    text-transform: uppercase;\r\n    margin-bottom: 18px;\r\n  }\r\n\r\n  .iron-lotus-post h1 {\r\n    font-family: 'Cinzel', serif;\r\n    font-size: 2rem;\r\n    font-weight: 600;\r\n    color: #f0e6d0;\r\n    margin: 0 0 36px 0;\r\n    line-height: 1.3;\r\n    border-bottom: 1px solid rgba(180, 130, 60, 0.25);\r\n    padding-bottom: 24px;\r\n  }\r\n\r\n  .iron-lotus-post p {\r\n    font-family: 'Crimson Pro', serif;\r\n    font-size: 1.2rem;\r\n    font-weight: 300;\r\n    color: rgba(240, 230, 208, 0.88);\r\n    line-height: 1.9;\r\n    margin-bottom: 1.6em;\r\n  }\r\n\r\n  .iron-lotus-post p:last-child {\r\n    margin-bottom: 0;\r\n  }\r\n<\/style>\r\n\r\n<div class=\"iron-lotus-post\">\r\n  <div class=\"post-label\">Build Log \u2014 Entry 01<\/div>\r\n  <h1>A Flawed Man With a Dream<\/h1>\r\n\r\n  <p>So I have a dream, a vision of a future for my family, a legacy. Working name is Iron Lotus because the end vision is eastern steampunk themed campground\/retreat. My family dream is broken but it's still my family. 20 years, 6 children together, my marriage is coming to a close. Separated but divorce not filed yet. My vision is a generational legacy to leave behind. Land to mold into a business, a lifestyle for my family. A place people can go to relax, heal and grow.<\/p>\r\n\r\n  <p>My wife and I are going to divorce but she is the mother of my children. On the land will be two houses \u2014 one for her and one for me. I don't get to see my children much and it hurts. I'm supposed to believe my only choice is to get sole custody and make her feel my pain. I don't accept that. Two homes, one property, one family business. I love steampunk and have always wanted a coffee shop. Funny thing is I've had millions of different ideas, dreams and directions but they all converged into this \u2014 a retreat and campground with campsites, tiny houses, a lodge with a game room, dance floor, dinner and coffee shop. Hiking trails and jogging trails with exercise stations. A playground for our kids and our guests.<\/p>\r\n\r\n  <p>I don't hate my wife but I don't love her either. I do love my children and they love both of us \u2014 and they shouldn't ever have to feel like they have to choose between us. We have our children and our love for them in common.<\/p>\r\n\r\n  <p>So here I am. A flawed and broken man with a dream. This is where that dream manifests and is documented. But first I have to divorce my wife, start an irrevocable trust, buy land through that trust and start building. 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