A Flawed Man With a Dream

So I have a dream, a vision of a future for my family, a legacy. Working name is Iron Lotus because the end vision is eastern steampunk themed campground/retreat. My family dream is broken but it's still my family. 20 years, 6 children together, my marriage is coming to a close. Separated but divorce not filed yet. My vision is a generational legacy to leave behind. Land to mold into a business, a lifestyle for my family. A place people can go to relax, heal and grow.

My wife and I are going to divorce but she is the mother of my children. On the land will be two houses — one for her and one for me. I don't get to see my children much and it hurts. I'm supposed to believe my only choice is to get sole custody and make her feel my pain. I don't accept that. Two homes, one property, one family business. I love steampunk and have always wanted a coffee shop. Funny thing is I've had millions of different ideas, dreams and directions but they all converged into this — a retreat and campground with campsites, tiny houses, a lodge with a game room, dance floor, dinner and coffee shop. Hiking trails and jogging trails with exercise stations. A playground for our kids and our guests.

I don't hate my wife but I don't love her either. I do love my children and they love both of us — and they shouldn't ever have to feel like they have to choose between us. We have our children and our love for them in common.

So here I am. A flawed and broken man with a dream. This is where that dream manifests and is documented. But first I have to divorce my wife, start an irrevocable trust, buy land through that trust and start building. My vision is too big to put here so I will post pieces as I go.